First of all I never loved the idea of being a Cancer, because out of 12 zodiac signs who wants to be a Cancer? It starts with the title: imposing and strong, but with a slightly negative connotation. And then there’s the dooming description found on any unremarkable horoscope: “Those born under the zodiac sign Cancer are overly sensitive, too intense, they’re moody and needy, and don’t you forget: they’re super deeply sensitive!! Beware!” – which basically begs the question of why should you date an intense, clingy and sensitive Cancer when you could have a fun loving Aries instead? It didn’t take long for me to decide that I must escape that Cancer identity, because – guess what – they were right. I was in fact too sensitive, and with a charming tendency to dwell on things.
For a while I wanted to be more like a Taurus. My older cousin is a Taurus and she was fiery and confident, and I was inspired by her stubborn personality. I wanted to be just like that, but I’d keep coming back to my old daydreaming Cancer ways. Eventually I came to accept that I was a romantic and a creative type, and therefore I should suffer.
The truth is I never paid too much attention to horoscopes or astrology, although it was always fun to read about future predicaments from time to time. I guess what really bothered me was that I didn’t want to be put in a box. I refused to be labeled as my zodiac sign, whatever that was.
But here’s what I’ve learned over the years: I’m a complex human being and I have traits from all 12 signs within me. I can be moody and sensitive, extremely ambitions, and an intense lover of fun and adventures. I also learned that one sign is not enough to define a person, so we all have ascendant signs and rising signs and moon signs, making us a mosaic of feelings and personalities. So that means that I’m also a little bit of a Sagittarius and a Scorpio, which makes me free spirited, open minded, active, optimistic, courageous, inquisitive, mysterious, passionate and exciting. Am I not impressive!! Aren’t you impressed? Well I’m impressed.
Of course to balance it all out I’m still supposed to be an unsettled, melancholic, sentimental, passive aggressive and dependent human being. And who wouldn’t want all of that??
So in the end, this is what it means to be a Cancer. We are nurturing, compassionate people. This will make us great mothers! And it’s okay if I’m a little too sensitive, I’ll just have to learn to grow some thick skin. Despite being a romantic, a lot of times I can be the exact opposite, and expose a lot of my Sagittarius/Scorpio tendencies. I still think of astrology as more of a fun thing rather than a serious thing, but it does help me understand more who I am, my nature and personality, and I love discovering little bits about myself that I never took the time to really consider and think about. And maybe nature and the Universe might actually influence me more than I know after all. I’m interested in exploring parts of me that I don’t fully understand yet, and being open to discovering new sides of me.
This week I read my horoscope and I was throughly pleased: “I’m eager to open my mind, broaden my horizon and I’m constantly searching for the purpose of life”.
I wonder who I’ll be next week.