Two autumns ago, when I moved from Toronto to a small town in Germany, in pursue of new challenges and experiences, I was a young restless spirit that craved new, exciting explorations into the unknown. I was a burning heart that longed for new beginnings and a purpose, in a rush to live and get it all done.
And like Jack Keroauc, I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion, therefore the journey here has been full of twists and turns and road bumps. I took my time to relish such feelings of confusion and inadequacy. I was on a quest to find the girl I used to be when the world was younger and I had everything to lose. You know how they say you’re likely to be happier if you wind up doing a version of what you loved most when you were ten? So, I remember that little girl as being fearless and confident and full of dreams, and I wanted to feel that again.
Anyways, time has flown by and here we are. From then to now life has been an intense and emotional roller coaster ride: from homesickness to broken hearts, tears, laughter, joy, loneliness, and everything in between. I feel wiser and older, but there’s still so much to learn. I’m the same person, and yet so different.
This little life experiment might be coming to an end in a few months. I realized suddenly, that I should make the most of it while it’s still going on. Who knows what life will bring in the next year, and as Oprah always says: luck is preparation meeting opportunity. So I want to be ready. Be ready for my moment. I heard the other day how perfectionism is a dangerous thing, a never ending cycle of paralysis. I was falling quickly into that trap, but hey life’s what happens when you’re busy making plans. And as cliche as that sounds, it is also true.
So let’s fix that. But let’s start small. For the next few months I’ll be challenging myself to try something new every week. Life here in Germany is quite different from life back in Canada, so every little thing can sometimes feel huge and overwhelming. I want to try taking a more practical approach to happiness, so I’ll follow some advice I’ve been gathering over time. This sounds silly and exciting and scary, so it must be right. I hope I can inspire some of you along the way to take a little risk every now and again, to follow your heart and take small steps towards big goals.
So wish me luck. Here we go.